BEHIND OUR LOVE...

BEHIND OUR LOVE... CHAPTER 54
BY MIEMIEBEE

IZZY'S POV;

     
       So he is now giving me a 20k as a week allowance? Wasn't he the one giving me a 3k? I counted 5k and returned the rest. Just then James appeared in front of me, he must have been watching me since. “Izzy take it, its all yours.”

     “For the whole month?” I asked raising an eyebrow.

      “No for the week, and if its not okay with you I can add lots more.”

        “Are you trying to make me laugh James? Weren't you the one giving me 3k before?”

     “Izzy please lets stop bringing the past into present, I know I've treated you badly but I want change now, please let me.”

         Ignoring what he said, “I have to go I don't wanna be late.” I state coldly.

         “I'll be the one to take you” he picked up the money and shoved it inside my bag in just an eye blink. “James!” I called his name angrily, as I tried to open my bag to bring out the money, he stopped me by holding my arm, which made me look at him.

       His eyes are warmly brown, there was nothing but regret and sorry in them. “Please Izzy” he pleaded in a cracky voice. We stood there looking at each other for almost a minute before I nodded at him. “Thank you” he said smiling. Without saying a word to him I turned to make my way out, “Izzy!” he called my name I pretended not to listen to him.

      I didn't know the time when he caught me by my arm making me to send him a deadly glare, “let me go James don't push it. I'm giving you all I can, don't make me change my mind. Why don't you seem to appreciate in your life?”

        “I do appreciate the chance you've given me Izzy, thank you for allowing me to help you with the dinner, make you breakfast, and for accepting the money, thank you alot. Just that allow me take you to school, its my responsibility allow me do it please, its all I ask.”

        Without letting his gentle and calm words get to me, I said coldly “then you ask for too much. Just let me be okay James? Stop sticking your nose in my affairs please. Let me be will you?” I state emphasizing every word.

      “Is that what you want Izzy?”

     “Yes” I said confidently while nodding.

       “Then I'll do it, I'll stop interfaring in your affairs if that will make you happy, I'll do it then. Nothing matters to me morethan your happiness Izzy, I love you.”

    I swear I know if I add 5 more minutes here I'll forgive James. He is sounding way morethan sincere and I don't like that, I don't want to ever forgive James even if I want to I can't anytime I remember the incident of the other day, I just can't. I didn't know the time when moisture starts to fill in my eyes rapidly, I turned and ran away without minding the calls James is sending me. Immediately I came out I stopped a taxi and shoved myself in telling him where to take me, I brought out a hanky from my bag and wiped off my tears.

     Why am I being like this? Why am I feeling pity towards James? Does he deserves any mercy? Does he deserve me to forgive him. Some part of me says yes while some says no and I agree with the no because James murdered my child, my unborn child. With this thought I didn't even know when we arrived.

      “Uh, ma'am we are there”
The driver said bringing me back to reality. “I'm sorry” I apologised and gave him his fare. Just when I came out of the taxi I saw James' car approaching. Oh not again I'm not ready for a scene in here, before James could come out of his car, Edward's car came approaching just a while after Fiona came out and after the goodbye's Edward drove and left. James was standing beside his car, I by the gate and Fiona in our middle. She looked at me then back to James and back to me again.

      Not liking where this is going I walked as fast as I can and pulled her by the arm. “Izzy what are you doing? Why is James standing there?” Ignoring her questions I dragged her straight to our school hut. I find a place and sit and so does she.

       “Can you tell me whats going on? And whats wrong with your puffy red eyes?”

       “We better not talk about it Fiona, why am I so weak? Why can't I fight for myself and my gone baby?” I state moisture filling in my eyes again

      “What are you talking about dear?” She asked in a concerned tone leaning my face over her chest.

       “Is James Fiona, I don't want to ever forgive him I don't want to but he is forcing me to.”

      “Forcing you? Like how?” She ask rubbing her palm over my shoulder.

       “Yes Fiona he is forcing me to, the way he slept for 2days by the door whilst I was admitted at the hospital, the way he assist me with dinner last night and made me breakfast today, the way he keep on telling me how sorry he is and wants to patch up things between us and also the way he gave me 20k for my weekly allowances. Fiona ask him to stop please...” I bursted out crying.

       “Shhh is okay dear, stop crying. If I were you do you know what I will do?” I shook my head disapprovingly as she proceeded. “I'll forgive him and give him the chance he is asking for, then I'll see if he is really a changed man as he claims to be. You know Izzy sometimes we do what we think is right and not follow our hearts. You and James deserves to be together, you are meant to be.”

       “You think so Fiona? What of Ryan? I love Ryan, I do love him.”

       “Izzy you don't love Ryan, you are just pretending to love him but deeply inside your heart is James who you love. You two have shared alot together, don't let it just disappear in an eye blink. James is willing to change, he has changed with all this new behaviours he has built and will build some more? Are all signs that he loves you dearly and don't want to lose you. Pity the man Izzy and give him a second chance.”

      “But I don't want to Fiona, I want him out of my life.”

      “No Izzy, you don't, you want him to stay and not to leave. Get time and consider what I told you just now, okay?” I nodded at her. “Now wipe off your tears we need to get to class.” I did as told and off we went to class.

     When it was time for break, Fiona and I went over to the cafeteria but Ryan isn't there maybe he don't have any lectures in school today. I thought to myself. Fiona took my order and I watch her as she left to get our orders for us. I was deeply lost in my thought about what Fiona said earlier when suddenly someone clapped his/her hand behind me scaring the devil out of me.

      A gasp made it way outta my mouth. Just as I turned, I saw smiling Ryan behind me. “I'll kill you, you know?” I threatened him in a joking manner. He laughed “you? Kill me? Thats never gonna happen.” He state as he sat beside me. “So what are you thinking about?”

     “Who? Me? Nothing.”

     “Oh common! Don't lie to me.” he retaliate.

     “I'm n-” then I thought what if he has been starring at me for a while? “Have you been here for a while?”

      “Yes” he answered instantly “about 2 minutes ago. So are you telling me what you've been thinking about?”

       “Actually its nothing.”

      “Sure...?” He raised an eyebrow

     “Common! Ryan don't you believe your girlfriend anymore?”

       “Ofcourse I do only that my girlfriend have been thinking about her husband all day long, isn't it?”

     “Ryan I don't want to lie to you but earlier Fiona told me something about James and the thought seems not to vanish away from my brain, I don't know what to do.”

       “Don't talk like that babe, I know you, you always know what to do. Just do the right thing okay?” I smiled and nodded solemnly. He placed a peck on my cheek as he stood up. “I need to go, I have something to attend to.” He picked up his car key and I watch him left.

       Just then Fiona returned back to the table placing my plate infront of me. “Thanks” I say vaguely.

       “Izzy whats on your mind this time around?”

    “Fiona you know you always read me like a book. I just don't know what to think anymore, I don't know what to do anymore. I'm all confused Ryan and James, I don't know what to do.” She laced our fingers “just think about what I told you earlier okay?” She state whilst smiling. “Now lets eat” she added. I nodded at her and that was how we got to finish our lunch.

       School closed by 2pm in the afternoon just when Fiona and I came out of class, I saw James standing beside his car he was dressed in mint blue shirt with black blazer on top together with a crazy blue jean trouser. Immediately when his eyes were set on us he starts to walk towards us. I hid behind Fiona as I held her hand tightly. “Fiona tell him to go away please, I don’t want to go with him.”

       James is standing just some inches away from Fiona and I. “Izzy afternoon” he greets me, seeing I have no intention of answering him, he holla at Fiona and they exchanged greetings. “Are you here to pick up Izzy?” Fiona asked.

       “Yes I am” he nodded stealing glances at me. “Aww! Thats romantic of you James.” She turned and looked at me. “Izzy I think you should get going.” She state as she tries to seperate our hands and I only held her tightly. Seeing I have no intention of letting go, she turned and looked at me, “Izzy please go with James let him perform his responsibility okay?” I shook my head disapprovingly at her.

        “Izzy please, go with him, call me when you reach home okay?” I still shook my head disapprovingly. “Izzy please come lets go” James state in a sweet voice gesturing his hand for me to grip on. “Izzy please go with him Please...” Fiona pleaded. I really don't want to go with James but I can’t say no to Fiona.

        I pulled my hand out from Fiona's and placed it on James'. He chivalrously hold my hand in his rubbing it gently. “Thank you Fiona we are going” he said to her. “Let me assist you with your bag Izzy please.” I wanted to blurt at him and say no but then I don't want to make a scene especially not infront of Fiona. He gently pulled out my bag from my shoulder and we walked over to his car he opened my door for me and closed it when I was in.

        I didn't say a word to him even though James kept on asking me how was school and other stuffs. I just stayed focus by the window side and when we got home, he opened my door again. I was walking so fast so as to get to my room when James caught me by my hand and I whipped it away glaring at him.